I’ve also been criticized for sharing a story which is too personal. I suppose it can be hard to read a story in which the main character is not always strong, is sometimes confused, and demonstrates poor reasoning. I’ve been called adolescent and blockheaded by reviewers. All negative assessments of me and my choices are accurate. I was very much a dumb kid when all of this started. I didn’t measure up. I was not good enough. I’ve made peace with that knowledge.
So why share the story?
There are people out there who are in situations like mine. There are those who are being abused and every decision seems blockheaded and adolescent to the outside world. It can seem that no matter which way one turns, there is no good choice to make. Still, the critics are waiting. And there are many critics when you are floundering. But the point is that there is hope regardless of your decisions and your critics. There is a way out. I have absolutely no doubt of that today. And for those who are in a position of having a low self-opinion because of the actions of others (as I was), I feel that if I did not share my own situation and understanding of being in that place, I could not expect a reader to relate and to see a way out for him or herself.
This is why I share my story, for those who need the hope. I’ll take the repeated criticism of my dumb actions because I think reading about my bad as well as my good decisions will be worth it to those who need to hear about them.